What follows is not meant to impress, persuade, sale or manipulate you in anyway. It is my modest recommendation to anyone that may be suffering from the devastating effects of Depression/PTSD. I’ve come to a point where I finally feel comfortable enough to share what I know is a very effective treatment for Depression/PTSD. Plus … Continue reading Bad to Good
Tabula rasa roughly translates to "clean slate". I love the concept but wonder about the reality of the phase. Pushing the reset button is necessity for us all. But when we execute, the experience is a warm boot (partial reset) as opposed to a cold boot (full reset), meaning you maintain baggage throughout your life. … Continue reading Tabula Rasa
Do not know how or why I woke up from this, did not want to, was not supposed to. I should not be here, but I am. Think what you will, but know suicide solves nothing. This photo looks like the morning after the night before. In all reality it is what happens when Ambien … Continue reading A Ghost Continued
Do not know how or why I woke up from this, did not want to, was not supposed to. I should not be here, but I am. Think what you will, but know suicide solves nothing. This photo looks like the morning after the night before. In all reality it is what happens when Ambien … Continue reading A Ghost
I didn’t realize until just recently that what I’m doing here is some serious business.. My life is at stake literally. Stopping the 450 mg of Effexor daily is not a good way to go. The withdraw symptoms are very challenging. To date it is not going well. I am on the verge of tears … Continue reading Journal Entry 12.30.12
Still searching for relief from this damn depression, I’m feeling poorly, viral I think. I rarely know anymore, depression aches. Note to future generations; it is not necessary (if you can help it) to swing, like a pendulum, between extremes. This story is headed toward a very bad ending unless I can pull myself together. … Continue reading Journal Entry 12.29.12
Back in Tucson in 2012 during the Holidays when I was feeling hopeless and wanted to do myself in. I decided to sketch a picture of me aiming at me with a gun. That's the illustration accompanying this post. It was a good release at the time because I'm still here writing this to help … Continue reading Suicide
My problems are numerous and I know there’s no way I can look at them collectively. It would be too overwhelming. I will take the most threatening problems first and then try to deal with them. Not having any direction and trying to heed suggestions from only your emotions will ultimately do you in.